Analysis.

Welp. Here we go again.  It is currently 11:38pm on a Saturday night and I am laying in my bed pondering life again.  Analysis.  It's the worst.  I over think everything.  Today was a day of over thinking things.  A certain scenario particularly pops to the mind when I rethink the day, but let's not hash up the dirty details of my life as to be completely honest it's the biggest waste of time and extremely boring. I shall make a list of things below of which I shall evaluate.

Numero Uno - I caught myself thinking of the things I need to do to make me content with the way things are going in my life.  Which to be completely honest, could use some serious re-evaluation.  The people that are in it, for one.  That's a major thing I need to think about.  I seem to think I need to surround myself with people who use me.  Not today mothafucka.  Not going to happen anymore.  If you want to be in my life, BE THERE.  If you don't, BEAT IT.  I'm sick and tired of these people who think they can come and go as they please.  If you think I'm always going to be there for you, think again.  It's time to find someone else to use and abuse because this chick has checked the fuck out.  

Numero Dos - Living life to the fullest.  I honestly do nothing exciting.  Well sometimes I do exciting things.  Like last night I went to the Backstreet Boys with my bestest friend Breanne.  Yep, probably the best time I've had in a super long time.  Also, last weekend went to random hall party in Keoma, of all places, that my sister-in-law's brother was throwing.  Hella good time.  NEVER drink a wine-mixer beverage if someone offers you one.  Well maybe it was just his wine-mixer beverage because 2 of those bad boys and you could likely die.  Anywho, that's about the most excitement I've had for awhile.  Even my birthday was a bore.  T-Swift made turning 22 sound like the funnest thing in the history of the planet.  Well she was a lying bitch.  Honestly though, I have to start indulging in things that interest me more.  I need to get back into photography.  I need to start swimming again.  I need to shoot gophers on the weekends because it's a way to release anger and stress.

Numero Tres - This one is big.  Don't sweat the small stuff.  Que sera sera.  Whatever will be, will be.  I'm tired of sitting around stressing about things that shouldn't matter.  Things that are so insignificant to life and how things are going to be in the future that I am wasting my life away.  I take a simple comment or glance from someone so personally.  Other people don't give a flying fuck what I'm doing, who I am, where I came from, or where I'm going.  So why should I let it bother me.  I'm done.

With all this nonsense said,  I hope some of you, too, can possibly relate.  Love the people that love you back, and be free of the ones who drag you down.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss

Boudoir.

Ola kids!  So a couple of months ago I decided, well I wouldn't say I decided more or less I was forced by a very dear friend of mine to do a boudoir photoshoot.  Lemme tell you, I was horrified.  Absolutely scared shitless.  Then I decided to wait last minute to figure out what I was going to wear.  Worst idea ever.  I am the queen of procrastination.  Legitimately.  The worst.  But I did it.  Found something that I didn't look like a fat whore in and bucked up and bought it.  The hair and make up… top notch.  The photography… amazing.  It gives you a sense of self confidence.  It's great.  Here are a couple of my favourites! :)