Well, well, well...Who knew this blog was still active?! I'm a deadbeat. Whoops. Whelp. A lot has changed. A lot has happened. A lot has gone wrong. A lot has gone right. So where to start. Let's just jump right on in here.
August 7th I was laid off of work due to the downturn in the oil and gas industry. What have I been doing with the last few months of my life you may ask? A whole lot of nothing. Well, that's not all true. The first couple months were spent living life and spending all my money, because I mean that's what every responsible 23 year old with a mortgage, bills and a car payment would do... Yikes. Although, it has been rather fun getting back into the farm thing with my family. I forgot what it was like to work with livestock and be with the people you love all the time. Now my family, they are sure something else. I have never felt so supported or loved from anyone more than I do from them. Especially my dad. If my dad wasn't my dad I don't know what I would do. He is the most loving, giving, loyal and forgiving human I know. Sure, he can be a hard ass at time but who doesn't need a swift kick in the ass sometimes. And I love and appreciate him more and more everyday for all that he has done and continues to do for me.
Now for friends. They sure come and go when they please. In all honesty though, I've done some things wrong but don't know whether or not things can be fixed. When someone can admit their wrong that says wonders about a person. So, you know who you are. I am sorry. I have made mistakes, I have messed up and I apologize. But with that said, I've made some pretty stellar new friends in the last couple months and I wouldn't trade any of them for the world!
Oh yea, hey! Guess what! I bought a new house....In July..HA! Granted, it is where I said I would never live again. But home is home. Alas, I have bought a house that feels like home. Which is indescribable. I am close to family, friends and I mean I have a social life again. Bonus! When I lived in Calgary, I was a hermit. I was either at my place in the city or at my dad or brothers house out at the farm. But yay for local friends and people that love you! Unfortunately, my poor kitty, Jed, I had at my city house couldn't hack the farm like and wandered off a couple of months ago. Holy balls do I miss him. I miss having a non-human cuddle buddy to snuggle with on the couch or at bed time. Chloe (my dog) is just a bitch and hogs my bed and just eats, sleeps, and shits. What is this! Amateur hour?! Just kidding, I love her. She keeps me entertained and is at least excited to see me when I come home, so that's good I guess eh?
OHHH YAAAA!!! GUESS WHAT!!! I'M AN AUNTIE...AGAIN!!! Brynn Mackenzie was welcomed into our hearts on September 17th. Oh man, is she ever presh. And seeing Dane with her holy moly that'll tear at your heart strings a tad! "My baby" he says. Sooo adorbs. Love these two more than I've ever loved any other humans I reckon. Although, when you are holding a baby and people walk up to you and are like "OMG I didn't know you had a baby, congratulations!" you kind of hate your life and want to be like, "YO! I know I'm fat, but this is not my child. I did not miraculously conceive a child and hide it for 9 months. She's my niece..." Good laughs though.
Lets wrap this up shall we? I'm rambling. Maybe one day I'll write a stellar blog again! Doubtful.
Well, be happy; love each other; be kind; have sex!
xoxo Daelyn
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
Friday, May 15, 2015
23.
23. I've been 23 for 10 days.
Where has my life gone!? Sometimes I find myself wondering what I'm doing with my life but then I think about how awesome of a new job I have and how I will eventually be able to do all the things I've wanted to do. Travel, buy myself something expensive for no reason, treat my friends once and a while. Which I totally did this past weekend. Helllooo rose gold Nixon watch.
I am content. I am not stressing about being broke. I'm not stressing about work. I am finally in a happy place in life. I have the most amazing support system in the world and they are always there when I need a kick in the ass... *cough*Hannah*cough*. Just kidding, she's there when I need some stern advice. But anyways, what I've come to the conclusion of up here in the middle of nowhere is that I am quite content with being alone. Which I mean for some people is horrifying. I know people who can't go longer than 2 weeks being single. I've been single for 23 years and I don't think I would have changed that for anything. Why? Because I've watched all my friends go through some of the most awful relationships and breakup and that look of utter heart break is not appealing to me. At all.
With that being said, I see all my close friends in seriously adorable relationships and I sit here and thing, hmm well that could be me maybe? Who knows. Maybe I'm not "relationship material" whatever that is supposed to mean. I've been told that, but what does that mean? That you want to hook up and never talk to me again? Been there done that. Screw you. I am worth more than your pity sex. Honestly, that's the thing I hate most. Don't say "oooo I want to be with you" then literally we sleep together and then completely ignore me when we see each other in Walmart or the bar. Was I a bet? Was I a joke? Fuck you if that's what you want because I'm done with all your drama and constant bullshit.
On another note, I love to hate men. I love to hate the way they mess with our minds. I love to hate the way they smell. I also love to hate how happy they make me. To be honest though, I have some pretty incredible men in my life. Not just men, I have some pretty incredible women too. But this is mainly about me bitching about shitty men. So lets stick with that. Honestly, I let them do it. I let them walk all over me. I think because I'm a people pleaser. I like to make people happy and in return I get nothing. I do things and never expect anything back anymore. That's sad to me. I deserve better than that. I deserve to be loved, wanted and most of all appreciated.
This all being said, I appreciate each and every one of them. Each of them have taught me so much about myself and what I actually strive for. Wait, that makes it sound like there has been copious amounts of random coitus happening. Which is NOT the case at all. Sorry dad, you probably do not want to know about this, but that's what you get for wanting to be my friend on facebook. HA! Back to the point, the most recent, I respect more than anyone and I am so grateful he is in my life. He's been a constant person I can go to for anything, and for that, thank you. You are an amazing man and any girl would be lucky to have you.
Moving right along here. I will be happy. I will strive to be a better human. A better sister. A better daughter. A better auntie to Dane and unborn Baby 2. And mostly, I will be a better me. With that being said; I am great as I am. And if you don't like that, please feel free to leave my life. I do not need anyone dragging me down or being a negative Nelly, I do that well enough on my own!
So now you all know how I feel about coitus, life and myself.
Potassium!
xoxo Daelyn
Where has my life gone!? Sometimes I find myself wondering what I'm doing with my life but then I think about how awesome of a new job I have and how I will eventually be able to do all the things I've wanted to do. Travel, buy myself something expensive for no reason, treat my friends once and a while. Which I totally did this past weekend. Helllooo rose gold Nixon watch.
I am content. I am not stressing about being broke. I'm not stressing about work. I am finally in a happy place in life. I have the most amazing support system in the world and they are always there when I need a kick in the ass... *cough*Hannah*cough*. Just kidding, she's there when I need some stern advice. But anyways, what I've come to the conclusion of up here in the middle of nowhere is that I am quite content with being alone. Which I mean for some people is horrifying. I know people who can't go longer than 2 weeks being single. I've been single for 23 years and I don't think I would have changed that for anything. Why? Because I've watched all my friends go through some of the most awful relationships and breakup and that look of utter heart break is not appealing to me. At all.
With that being said, I see all my close friends in seriously adorable relationships and I sit here and thing, hmm well that could be me maybe? Who knows. Maybe I'm not "relationship material" whatever that is supposed to mean. I've been told that, but what does that mean? That you want to hook up and never talk to me again? Been there done that. Screw you. I am worth more than your pity sex. Honestly, that's the thing I hate most. Don't say "oooo I want to be with you" then literally we sleep together and then completely ignore me when we see each other in Walmart or the bar. Was I a bet? Was I a joke? Fuck you if that's what you want because I'm done with all your drama and constant bullshit.
On another note, I love to hate men. I love to hate the way they mess with our minds. I love to hate the way they smell. I also love to hate how happy they make me. To be honest though, I have some pretty incredible men in my life. Not just men, I have some pretty incredible women too. But this is mainly about me bitching about shitty men. So lets stick with that. Honestly, I let them do it. I let them walk all over me. I think because I'm a people pleaser. I like to make people happy and in return I get nothing. I do things and never expect anything back anymore. That's sad to me. I deserve better than that. I deserve to be loved, wanted and most of all appreciated.
This all being said, I appreciate each and every one of them. Each of them have taught me so much about myself and what I actually strive for. Wait, that makes it sound like there has been copious amounts of random coitus happening. Which is NOT the case at all. Sorry dad, you probably do not want to know about this, but that's what you get for wanting to be my friend on facebook. HA! Back to the point, the most recent, I respect more than anyone and I am so grateful he is in my life. He's been a constant person I can go to for anything, and for that, thank you. You are an amazing man and any girl would be lucky to have you.
Moving right along here. I will be happy. I will strive to be a better human. A better sister. A better daughter. A better auntie to Dane and unborn Baby 2. And mostly, I will be a better me. With that being said; I am great as I am. And if you don't like that, please feel free to leave my life. I do not need anyone dragging me down or being a negative Nelly, I do that well enough on my own!
So now you all know how I feel about coitus, life and myself.
Potassium!
xoxo Daelyn
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