Saturday, November 5, 2016

Boy crazy.

As I sit here listening to a classic Chris Brown song I start to wonder what happened to him and RiRi because fuck his voice is like an angel; but then I remember he beat the shit out of her and the rest is history. Any who! Back to business and me ranting about thing that drive me crazy or I am just so confused by. Disclaimer: For those friends of mine who may or may not read this, this isn't directed at you. It is directed at all females and males as a whole. But legit we've probably had a conversation about this and I'm simply putting these things out there to the world because honestly, they piss me the fuck off.

GIRLS ARE CRAZY.  For boys. For sex. For attention. For money. Frankly, I don't get it. I like to be my own person and do my own things and not answer to anyone other than my dog because I mean she's pretty high maintenance. Please understand one thing here... I have never been in a serious relationship that consisted of the "facebook official" thing. Sure, I've hung out with guys lots but never really went anywhere further than that and I am 100% okay with that. I don't need a label to make me feel secure about where I stand. If I am important to them they will take the time to see/hang out with me. I don't expect someone to give up what they value in their lives just to appease to my wants. Notice I say wants, because that kind of stuff is nice, sure, but it isn't imperative to tell me you love me every five seconds or for you text me every single minute of every single day. I hear my girlfriends talk about how they hate it when they don't speak to their significant others all the time and I'm like "yo, A) who has time for that and B) what the fuck are you going to talk about when you actually see each other!?" Ladies, I beg of you! Do not give up who you are in order to please a man or a boy, because lets face it they aren't even men anymore they all act like little boys most of the time. I admit, I am guilty of all of this too. Not to long ago I was texting someone and he didn't respond for like 45 minutes and I was like "yoo, guys I think he's ghosting me.." to which we all sat and laughed about for awhile and I still get made fun of to this day for it.

MEN! My favorite people most of the time. I apologize to you for the crazy shit us women put you through. 98% of the time we don't even realize we are being psycho bitches and just need a swift kick in the ass to snap out of it. However, this isn't the case in all instances. Sometimes you're the psycho bitch who needs a slap upside the head because you sometimes cause just as much drama as we do. And for that, I thank you for the entertainment. Wholeheartedly, I love most of you because you don't come crying to me when you're girlfriend you've had for 2 weeks broke up with you like some of my female co-conspirators do. This doesn't mean I love them any less, it just means I shake my head more at the female species rather than you horny asses. Let's be honest here, we are all super similar in a lot of ways, but the way men can shut off their emotions is amazing to me most days. The cold shoulder or "ghosting" is your specialty basically. Right? I mean sure, I've got the cutting people off cold turkey thing down pretty good, considering the past few years I have some practice with it. But with that said, sometimes we and I say we, meaning men and women, need closure and answers as to why out of the blue you dropped off the face of the planet. SURE, we could be too clingy or too needy or ignore you. Whatever the case is, be considerate of other peoples feelings. Not everyone is able to shut out things as good as some of us can.

With all of this being said, I just want everyone to take a step back and evaluate their relationships. All relationships. Friendships, serious relationships, fuck buddy relationships, family relationships. Now think about them for a minute. Do they make you happy? Do you sit there and wonder why that person or people are in your life? If that is the case, maybe it's time to do some talking or serious cuts. There is ZERO point in having people in your life who bring you drama, heartache, tears, or just plain ol' don't make you feel good about yourself.  As I am now back at work up in the boonies, I have a lot of time to myself and I often find myself thinking about people at home. Being 695km's away from the people you love is pretty hard sometimes. But with that said, it kind of makes you think of who really matters and who is just in your life to just be there.  I saw a picture and posted it today. It said "it took me way too long to realize that you shouldn't stay friends with people who never ask how you're doing." And for me this couldn't be more true.  I've been away from home for 2 weeks and I have heard from very few people. Which, in all honesty, has been a blessing and a shitty time because people who I used to talk to everyday have fallen off the face of the earth. I know, I know. It takes two people to text and talk but sitting up here in the middle of the bush makes you miss home and kind of hope someone is maybe missing you too.

But who knows, that's enough ranting and complaining for one day I think.  Talk about getting off topic. And I swear to fuck if anyone get's butt hurt over this I'm going to scream.