Well, well, well...Who knew this blog was still active?! I'm a deadbeat. Whoops. Whelp. A lot has changed. A lot has happened. A lot has gone wrong. A lot has gone right. So where to start. Let's just jump right on in here.
August 7th I was laid off of work due to the downturn in the oil and gas industry. What have I been doing with the last few months of my life you may ask? A whole lot of nothing. Well, that's not all true. The first couple months were spent living life and spending all my money, because I mean that's what every responsible 23 year old with a mortgage, bills and a car payment would do... Yikes. Although, it has been rather fun getting back into the farm thing with my family. I forgot what it was like to work with livestock and be with the people you love all the time. Now my family, they are sure something else. I have never felt so supported or loved from anyone more than I do from them. Especially my dad. If my dad wasn't my dad I don't know what I would do. He is the most loving, giving, loyal and forgiving human I know. Sure, he can be a hard ass at time but who doesn't need a swift kick in the ass sometimes. And I love and appreciate him more and more everyday for all that he has done and continues to do for me.
Now for friends. They sure come and go when they please. In all honesty though, I've done some things wrong but don't know whether or not things can be fixed. When someone can admit their wrong that says wonders about a person. So, you know who you are. I am sorry. I have made mistakes, I have messed up and I apologize. But with that said, I've made some pretty stellar new friends in the last couple months and I wouldn't trade any of them for the world!
Oh yea, hey! Guess what! I bought a new house....In July..HA! Granted, it is where I said I would never live again. But home is home. Alas, I have bought a house that feels like home. Which is indescribable. I am close to family, friends and I mean I have a social life again. Bonus! When I lived in Calgary, I was a hermit. I was either at my place in the city or at my dad or brothers house out at the farm. But yay for local friends and people that love you! Unfortunately, my poor kitty, Jed, I had at my city house couldn't hack the farm like and wandered off a couple of months ago. Holy balls do I miss him. I miss having a non-human cuddle buddy to snuggle with on the couch or at bed time. Chloe (my dog) is just a bitch and hogs my bed and just eats, sleeps, and shits. What is this! Amateur hour?! Just kidding, I love her. She keeps me entertained and is at least excited to see me when I come home, so that's good I guess eh?
OHHH YAAAA!!! GUESS WHAT!!! I'M AN AUNTIE...AGAIN!!! Brynn Mackenzie was welcomed into our hearts on September 17th. Oh man, is she ever presh. And seeing Dane with her holy moly that'll tear at your heart strings a tad! "My baby" he says. Sooo adorbs. Love these two more than I've ever loved any other humans I reckon. Although, when you are holding a baby and people walk up to you and are like "OMG I didn't know you had a baby, congratulations!" you kind of hate your life and want to be like, "YO! I know I'm fat, but this is not my child. I did not miraculously conceive a child and hide it for 9 months. She's my niece..." Good laughs though.
Lets wrap this up shall we? I'm rambling. Maybe one day I'll write a stellar blog again! Doubtful.
Well, be happy; love each other; be kind; have sex!
xoxo Daelyn
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
Friday, May 15, 2015
23.
23. I've been 23 for 10 days.
Where has my life gone!? Sometimes I find myself wondering what I'm doing with my life but then I think about how awesome of a new job I have and how I will eventually be able to do all the things I've wanted to do. Travel, buy myself something expensive for no reason, treat my friends once and a while. Which I totally did this past weekend. Helllooo rose gold Nixon watch.
I am content. I am not stressing about being broke. I'm not stressing about work. I am finally in a happy place in life. I have the most amazing support system in the world and they are always there when I need a kick in the ass... *cough*Hannah*cough*. Just kidding, she's there when I need some stern advice. But anyways, what I've come to the conclusion of up here in the middle of nowhere is that I am quite content with being alone. Which I mean for some people is horrifying. I know people who can't go longer than 2 weeks being single. I've been single for 23 years and I don't think I would have changed that for anything. Why? Because I've watched all my friends go through some of the most awful relationships and breakup and that look of utter heart break is not appealing to me. At all.
With that being said, I see all my close friends in seriously adorable relationships and I sit here and thing, hmm well that could be me maybe? Who knows. Maybe I'm not "relationship material" whatever that is supposed to mean. I've been told that, but what does that mean? That you want to hook up and never talk to me again? Been there done that. Screw you. I am worth more than your pity sex. Honestly, that's the thing I hate most. Don't say "oooo I want to be with you" then literally we sleep together and then completely ignore me when we see each other in Walmart or the bar. Was I a bet? Was I a joke? Fuck you if that's what you want because I'm done with all your drama and constant bullshit.
On another note, I love to hate men. I love to hate the way they mess with our minds. I love to hate the way they smell. I also love to hate how happy they make me. To be honest though, I have some pretty incredible men in my life. Not just men, I have some pretty incredible women too. But this is mainly about me bitching about shitty men. So lets stick with that. Honestly, I let them do it. I let them walk all over me. I think because I'm a people pleaser. I like to make people happy and in return I get nothing. I do things and never expect anything back anymore. That's sad to me. I deserve better than that. I deserve to be loved, wanted and most of all appreciated.
This all being said, I appreciate each and every one of them. Each of them have taught me so much about myself and what I actually strive for. Wait, that makes it sound like there has been copious amounts of random coitus happening. Which is NOT the case at all. Sorry dad, you probably do not want to know about this, but that's what you get for wanting to be my friend on facebook. HA! Back to the point, the most recent, I respect more than anyone and I am so grateful he is in my life. He's been a constant person I can go to for anything, and for that, thank you. You are an amazing man and any girl would be lucky to have you.
Moving right along here. I will be happy. I will strive to be a better human. A better sister. A better daughter. A better auntie to Dane and unborn Baby 2. And mostly, I will be a better me. With that being said; I am great as I am. And if you don't like that, please feel free to leave my life. I do not need anyone dragging me down or being a negative Nelly, I do that well enough on my own!
So now you all know how I feel about coitus, life and myself.
Potassium!
xoxo Daelyn
Where has my life gone!? Sometimes I find myself wondering what I'm doing with my life but then I think about how awesome of a new job I have and how I will eventually be able to do all the things I've wanted to do. Travel, buy myself something expensive for no reason, treat my friends once and a while. Which I totally did this past weekend. Helllooo rose gold Nixon watch.
I am content. I am not stressing about being broke. I'm not stressing about work. I am finally in a happy place in life. I have the most amazing support system in the world and they are always there when I need a kick in the ass... *cough*Hannah*cough*. Just kidding, she's there when I need some stern advice. But anyways, what I've come to the conclusion of up here in the middle of nowhere is that I am quite content with being alone. Which I mean for some people is horrifying. I know people who can't go longer than 2 weeks being single. I've been single for 23 years and I don't think I would have changed that for anything. Why? Because I've watched all my friends go through some of the most awful relationships and breakup and that look of utter heart break is not appealing to me. At all.
With that being said, I see all my close friends in seriously adorable relationships and I sit here and thing, hmm well that could be me maybe? Who knows. Maybe I'm not "relationship material" whatever that is supposed to mean. I've been told that, but what does that mean? That you want to hook up and never talk to me again? Been there done that. Screw you. I am worth more than your pity sex. Honestly, that's the thing I hate most. Don't say "oooo I want to be with you" then literally we sleep together and then completely ignore me when we see each other in Walmart or the bar. Was I a bet? Was I a joke? Fuck you if that's what you want because I'm done with all your drama and constant bullshit.
On another note, I love to hate men. I love to hate the way they mess with our minds. I love to hate the way they smell. I also love to hate how happy they make me. To be honest though, I have some pretty incredible men in my life. Not just men, I have some pretty incredible women too. But this is mainly about me bitching about shitty men. So lets stick with that. Honestly, I let them do it. I let them walk all over me. I think because I'm a people pleaser. I like to make people happy and in return I get nothing. I do things and never expect anything back anymore. That's sad to me. I deserve better than that. I deserve to be loved, wanted and most of all appreciated.
This all being said, I appreciate each and every one of them. Each of them have taught me so much about myself and what I actually strive for. Wait, that makes it sound like there has been copious amounts of random coitus happening. Which is NOT the case at all. Sorry dad, you probably do not want to know about this, but that's what you get for wanting to be my friend on facebook. HA! Back to the point, the most recent, I respect more than anyone and I am so grateful he is in my life. He's been a constant person I can go to for anything, and for that, thank you. You are an amazing man and any girl would be lucky to have you.
Moving right along here. I will be happy. I will strive to be a better human. A better sister. A better daughter. A better auntie to Dane and unborn Baby 2. And mostly, I will be a better me. With that being said; I am great as I am. And if you don't like that, please feel free to leave my life. I do not need anyone dragging me down or being a negative Nelly, I do that well enough on my own!
So now you all know how I feel about coitus, life and myself.
Potassium!
xoxo Daelyn
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
December.
Hello my loves...
I haven't written anything as of late and strangely enough got a request to write a new blog post today. STRANGE! Needless to say, my year was going fairly decent. Couldn't complain to much, had a great Christmas, New Years, birthday and I went the Backstreet Boys concert. Year=made! Until this summer. My world got flipped upside down. Something happened that I never thought would happen to me or my family. I will not go into great detail about it, as those involved need their privacy, as do I.
Family is the single handed most important thing in life. Without your family, who do you really have? Sure, you have friends but they aren't always there to pick up the pieces or to talk to when your screaming or crying. But for me, I do not know where I would be without my two best friends Breanne and Hannah. They have become part of my family.
Hannah, I called crying so hard this summer that I couldn't breathe and she talked to me and calmed me down from something I thought I would never recover from. Hannah has been my best friend since grade 7. We met through our mutual friend Jordyn and we inseparable ever since. Although she has moved to Coaldale and met the most amazing man, Jesse; she is always there for me. Not matter what time it is, whether it's good news or bad she's always been there, for that I will be eternally grateful.
Breanne, she has been my rock. My go-to person. My constant friend and has always had my back. Giving me distractions from my broken life. Breanne and I met back in the good-ol days of Star's basketball where her dad, Pat, was my coach. We weren't all that close during school, but after graduation we reconnected and have't grown apart since. She is my JamMama for our Jamberry business and love that I get to share that experience with my best friend. I am so proud of her, and her accomplishments of getting her degree this year and pursuing her dream of being a teacher. AND to top it all off, she has the best boyfriend Kody and they just moved into the most amazing house together. I do not know what I would do without her in my life.
I owe both of these girls so much, but could never repay them for what they have done for me because you cannot put a price on it. It's amazing to have these people around and to feel supported and loved.
As for family, Jordan, my older brother has been the most outstanding human and most loving and understanding. I honestly do not know what I would do without him. I would be broken. To say we have always been this close would not be true. He did his thing and worked on the farm when we were kids and was definitely a daddy's boy. Where as myself, I was a mama's girl from the get-go. Jordan has taught me so many things in life. How to ride a dirt bike, how to shoot a gun, how to crash a quad.... how to throw darts and get them stuck in your siblings ankles.... But most of all he's taught me what family means and how to love that special person in your life. I look at him and my sister-in-law Katie's marriage and there is so much love. I hope one day I can be as happy as they are. Especially with a kid as damn cute as my nephew Dane.
I could not even imagine my life now without my nephew Dane. Not a fricken chance. He brings so much love and laughter to our family. His smile melts my heart. He's got the best dimples and giggle I've ever seen. I die a little bit inside when he crawls over to me and wants me to pick him up. He's got the most amazing personality and I cannot wait to see this kid grow up. (NOT THAT THIS SHOULD HAPPEN FAST!!) I am so excited for when he gets to be a big brother one day. These kids will have hit the lottery in the parent department.
Please do not take your family and friends for granted. Sometimes, they are all you have and or need to get through tough times. Love them, appreciate them and be there for them. Sometimes people need you more than you know.
cheers! xoxox
I haven't written anything as of late and strangely enough got a request to write a new blog post today. STRANGE! Needless to say, my year was going fairly decent. Couldn't complain to much, had a great Christmas, New Years, birthday and I went the Backstreet Boys concert. Year=made! Until this summer. My world got flipped upside down. Something happened that I never thought would happen to me or my family. I will not go into great detail about it, as those involved need their privacy, as do I.
Family is the single handed most important thing in life. Without your family, who do you really have? Sure, you have friends but they aren't always there to pick up the pieces or to talk to when your screaming or crying. But for me, I do not know where I would be without my two best friends Breanne and Hannah. They have become part of my family.
Hannah, I called crying so hard this summer that I couldn't breathe and she talked to me and calmed me down from something I thought I would never recover from. Hannah has been my best friend since grade 7. We met through our mutual friend Jordyn and we inseparable ever since. Although she has moved to Coaldale and met the most amazing man, Jesse; she is always there for me. Not matter what time it is, whether it's good news or bad she's always been there, for that I will be eternally grateful.
Breanne, she has been my rock. My go-to person. My constant friend and has always had my back. Giving me distractions from my broken life. Breanne and I met back in the good-ol days of Star's basketball where her dad, Pat, was my coach. We weren't all that close during school, but after graduation we reconnected and have't grown apart since. She is my JamMama for our Jamberry business and love that I get to share that experience with my best friend. I am so proud of her, and her accomplishments of getting her degree this year and pursuing her dream of being a teacher. AND to top it all off, she has the best boyfriend Kody and they just moved into the most amazing house together. I do not know what I would do without her in my life.
I owe both of these girls so much, but could never repay them for what they have done for me because you cannot put a price on it. It's amazing to have these people around and to feel supported and loved.
As for family, Jordan, my older brother has been the most outstanding human and most loving and understanding. I honestly do not know what I would do without him. I would be broken. To say we have always been this close would not be true. He did his thing and worked on the farm when we were kids and was definitely a daddy's boy. Where as myself, I was a mama's girl from the get-go. Jordan has taught me so many things in life. How to ride a dirt bike, how to shoot a gun, how to crash a quad.... how to throw darts and get them stuck in your siblings ankles.... But most of all he's taught me what family means and how to love that special person in your life. I look at him and my sister-in-law Katie's marriage and there is so much love. I hope one day I can be as happy as they are. Especially with a kid as damn cute as my nephew Dane.
I could not even imagine my life now without my nephew Dane. Not a fricken chance. He brings so much love and laughter to our family. His smile melts my heart. He's got the best dimples and giggle I've ever seen. I die a little bit inside when he crawls over to me and wants me to pick him up. He's got the most amazing personality and I cannot wait to see this kid grow up. (NOT THAT THIS SHOULD HAPPEN FAST!!) I am so excited for when he gets to be a big brother one day. These kids will have hit the lottery in the parent department.
Please do not take your family and friends for granted. Sometimes, they are all you have and or need to get through tough times. Love them, appreciate them and be there for them. Sometimes people need you more than you know.
cheers! xoxox
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Friends.
HUMP DAYYYY!
Happy Wednesday kids! So I've come to notice this is becoming more of a monthly blog which hey, I'm okay with because it takes a lot of my already dead brain to put something together. And tonight it is specifically painful as I am dying of a migraine, but I felt I needed to put something together as this past weekend I did a lot of thinking.
The few friends I have, let me tell you, they are amazing. New, old, near or far, they are there when I need them. My best friend graduated from university and had a party at her house and I was lucky enough to be invited to join the festivities. Some of the people in attendance I'd never met before, some I hadn't seen since high school and some I knew but wasn't overly close with. You know, I had the best time. I was out of my comfort zone. I was meeting new people. I was laughing and having the best time with the greatest people and you never know who you will meet until you push yourself out of that comfort zone or out of your own bubble. "B" has the greatest friends and it's not that I never knew them, it was that I'd never taken the time to get to know them when I was younger.
As you grow older you become friends with people who in high school you never talked to or associated with or complete strangers. The sad thing is, is that I put so much time into the friendships I had in high school and I don't even talk to half of those people anymore. Most of them either have kids or are married by now and I'm all over here like, "heyyyy, I'm still being single and awesome…" haha just kidding. But honestly though, everyone has moved on with their lives and its not who you were in high school anymore. I go home every so often and I still see some of the same people hanging out in the same groups doing the exact same thing they did every Saturday night. Getting drunk and hooking up with the same people. I mean yea, sure, if you are leading a fulfilling life I'm not here to judge you, but there is more to life than getting drunk every weekend and there is a hell of a lot more to life than Strathmore.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, thank you. Thank you to the people who have stuck around. Thank you to the newest people in my life for being there now, I'm glad your here! And thank you to the assholes who left, because without the pain, there would be no lessons to learn and no way to know that I deserve better.
xoxo cheers!
Happy Wednesday kids! So I've come to notice this is becoming more of a monthly blog which hey, I'm okay with because it takes a lot of my already dead brain to put something together. And tonight it is specifically painful as I am dying of a migraine, but I felt I needed to put something together as this past weekend I did a lot of thinking.
The few friends I have, let me tell you, they are amazing. New, old, near or far, they are there when I need them. My best friend graduated from university and had a party at her house and I was lucky enough to be invited to join the festivities. Some of the people in attendance I'd never met before, some I hadn't seen since high school and some I knew but wasn't overly close with. You know, I had the best time. I was out of my comfort zone. I was meeting new people. I was laughing and having the best time with the greatest people and you never know who you will meet until you push yourself out of that comfort zone or out of your own bubble. "B" has the greatest friends and it's not that I never knew them, it was that I'd never taken the time to get to know them when I was younger.
As you grow older you become friends with people who in high school you never talked to or associated with or complete strangers. The sad thing is, is that I put so much time into the friendships I had in high school and I don't even talk to half of those people anymore. Most of them either have kids or are married by now and I'm all over here like, "heyyyy, I'm still being single and awesome…" haha just kidding. But honestly though, everyone has moved on with their lives and its not who you were in high school anymore. I go home every so often and I still see some of the same people hanging out in the same groups doing the exact same thing they did every Saturday night. Getting drunk and hooking up with the same people. I mean yea, sure, if you are leading a fulfilling life I'm not here to judge you, but there is more to life than getting drunk every weekend and there is a hell of a lot more to life than Strathmore.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, thank you. Thank you to the people who have stuck around. Thank you to the newest people in my life for being there now, I'm glad your here! And thank you to the assholes who left, because without the pain, there would be no lessons to learn and no way to know that I deserve better.
xoxo cheers!
Sunday, May 18, 2014
Analysis.
Welp. Here we go again. It is currently 11:38pm on a Saturday night and I am laying in my bed pondering life again. Analysis. It's the worst. I over think everything. Today was a day of over thinking things. A certain scenario particularly pops to the mind when I rethink the day, but let's not hash up the dirty details of my life as to be completely honest it's the biggest waste of time and extremely boring. I shall make a list of things below of which I shall evaluate.
Numero Uno - I caught myself thinking of the things I need to do to make me content with the way things are going in my life. Which to be completely honest, could use some serious re-evaluation. The people that are in it, for one. That's a major thing I need to think about. I seem to think I need to surround myself with people who use me. Not today mothafucka. Not going to happen anymore. If you want to be in my life, BE THERE. If you don't, BEAT IT. I'm sick and tired of these people who think they can come and go as they please. If you think I'm always going to be there for you, think again. It's time to find someone else to use and abuse because this chick has checked the fuck out.
Numero Dos - Living life to the fullest. I honestly do nothing exciting. Well sometimes I do exciting things. Like last night I went to the Backstreet Boys with my bestest friend Breanne. Yep, probably the best time I've had in a super long time. Also, last weekend went to random hall party in Keoma, of all places, that my sister-in-law's brother was throwing. Hella good time. NEVER drink a wine-mixer beverage if someone offers you one. Well maybe it was just his wine-mixer beverage because 2 of those bad boys and you could likely die. Anywho, that's about the most excitement I've had for awhile. Even my birthday was a bore. T-Swift made turning 22 sound like the funnest thing in the history of the planet. Well she was a lying bitch. Honestly though, I have to start indulging in things that interest me more. I need to get back into photography. I need to start swimming again. I need to shoot gophers on the weekends because it's a way to release anger and stress.
Numero Tres - This one is big. Don't sweat the small stuff. Que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be. I'm tired of sitting around stressing about things that shouldn't matter. Things that are so insignificant to life and how things are going to be in the future that I am wasting my life away. I take a simple comment or glance from someone so personally. Other people don't give a flying fuck what I'm doing, who I am, where I came from, or where I'm going. So why should I let it bother me. I'm done.
With all this nonsense said, I hope some of you, too, can possibly relate. Love the people that love you back, and be free of the ones who drag you down.
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss
Numero Uno - I caught myself thinking of the things I need to do to make me content with the way things are going in my life. Which to be completely honest, could use some serious re-evaluation. The people that are in it, for one. That's a major thing I need to think about. I seem to think I need to surround myself with people who use me. Not today mothafucka. Not going to happen anymore. If you want to be in my life, BE THERE. If you don't, BEAT IT. I'm sick and tired of these people who think they can come and go as they please. If you think I'm always going to be there for you, think again. It's time to find someone else to use and abuse because this chick has checked the fuck out.
Numero Dos - Living life to the fullest. I honestly do nothing exciting. Well sometimes I do exciting things. Like last night I went to the Backstreet Boys with my bestest friend Breanne. Yep, probably the best time I've had in a super long time. Also, last weekend went to random hall party in Keoma, of all places, that my sister-in-law's brother was throwing. Hella good time. NEVER drink a wine-mixer beverage if someone offers you one. Well maybe it was just his wine-mixer beverage because 2 of those bad boys and you could likely die. Anywho, that's about the most excitement I've had for awhile. Even my birthday was a bore. T-Swift made turning 22 sound like the funnest thing in the history of the planet. Well she was a lying bitch. Honestly though, I have to start indulging in things that interest me more. I need to get back into photography. I need to start swimming again. I need to shoot gophers on the weekends because it's a way to release anger and stress.
Numero Tres - This one is big. Don't sweat the small stuff. Que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be. I'm tired of sitting around stressing about things that shouldn't matter. Things that are so insignificant to life and how things are going to be in the future that I am wasting my life away. I take a simple comment or glance from someone so personally. Other people don't give a flying fuck what I'm doing, who I am, where I came from, or where I'm going. So why should I let it bother me. I'm done.
With all this nonsense said, I hope some of you, too, can possibly relate. Love the people that love you back, and be free of the ones who drag you down.
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss
Monday, May 12, 2014
Boudoir.
Ola kids! So a couple of months ago I decided, well I wouldn't say I decided more or less I was forced by a very dear friend of mine to do a boudoir photoshoot. Lemme tell you, I was horrified. Absolutely scared shitless. Then I decided to wait last minute to figure out what I was going to wear. Worst idea ever. I am the queen of procrastination. Legitimately. The worst. But I did it. Found something that I didn't look like a fat whore in and bucked up and bought it. The hair and make up… top notch. The photography… amazing. It gives you a sense of self confidence. It's great. Here are a couple of my favourites! :)
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Judgement.
Hello kids. I've been asked where my blog has gone so figured I would muster something up and fulfil your greedy hearts with a sappy sort of fuck you post. So here it goes.
Growing up I considered myself to be a pretty outgoing person and could get along with just about anyone. Until now. I get so frustrated with everyone. We all have the pre-perceved notions of people before two words come out of their mouths. "Oh that bitch looked at me wrong, I hate her guts." Fuck you. You or even myself do not know what kind of lives these people live. That girl you called a slut, she got raped as a child. That boy you called a nerd, he would try out for the basketball team and probably be captain but is scared of getting the shit kicked out of him at tryouts.
I recently got a couple new tattoos and have gotten the weirdest reactions to them. "Why would you put that on your body?" or "why don't you just tattoo your work address on you?" or "if I give you my autograph will you get it as a tattoo too?" You know what? KISS MY ASS! I got two things that are important to me. Sure you may not know what it means, but instead of judging me, why don't you ask me what it means to me or what the significance of it is? I was actually hurt by the reactions I got. So here is the reasoning for you people who might be wondering. The tattoo on my collar bone is the legal land description of my parents farm. Why? Because that's where I grew up, it's home. It's apart of who I am. It made me the person I am today. The tattoo on my foot, that is for my Grams. The one who passed away a couple of years ago. It is her sign off from my 4th birthday card. In her writing. It's perfect. It looks identical to the writing from the card. So please tell me that these aren't sentimental or that I should go get your signature tattooed on my body. The only place those would go would be on my ass with an X through it.
I am not saying in the slightest that I am not judgemental, because trust me I am. But keep your snide comments to yourself. I'm so tired of having to defend myself and other people because someone doesn't like what they are doing or how they look.
Love one another, be grateful for the people you have in your life because you never know when they decide their time is done.
xoxo
Growing up I considered myself to be a pretty outgoing person and could get along with just about anyone. Until now. I get so frustrated with everyone. We all have the pre-perceved notions of people before two words come out of their mouths. "Oh that bitch looked at me wrong, I hate her guts." Fuck you. You or even myself do not know what kind of lives these people live. That girl you called a slut, she got raped as a child. That boy you called a nerd, he would try out for the basketball team and probably be captain but is scared of getting the shit kicked out of him at tryouts.
I recently got a couple new tattoos and have gotten the weirdest reactions to them. "Why would you put that on your body?" or "why don't you just tattoo your work address on you?" or "if I give you my autograph will you get it as a tattoo too?" You know what? KISS MY ASS! I got two things that are important to me. Sure you may not know what it means, but instead of judging me, why don't you ask me what it means to me or what the significance of it is? I was actually hurt by the reactions I got. So here is the reasoning for you people who might be wondering. The tattoo on my collar bone is the legal land description of my parents farm. Why? Because that's where I grew up, it's home. It's apart of who I am. It made me the person I am today. The tattoo on my foot, that is for my Grams. The one who passed away a couple of years ago. It is her sign off from my 4th birthday card. In her writing. It's perfect. It looks identical to the writing from the card. So please tell me that these aren't sentimental or that I should go get your signature tattooed on my body. The only place those would go would be on my ass with an X through it.
I am not saying in the slightest that I am not judgemental, because trust me I am. But keep your snide comments to yourself. I'm so tired of having to defend myself and other people because someone doesn't like what they are doing or how they look.
Love one another, be grateful for the people you have in your life because you never know when they decide their time is done.
xoxo
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